I am a giving person. I tend to avoid confrontation and try to not make waves. I grin and bear it.
As I have been working hard on myself, though, I have started to realize and feel frustrated about something:
Every time I begin to feel better and make gains, something happens that seems to set me back and subtract from my progress.
Or, perhaps I shouldn’t say something…perhaps I should say someONE (or, really, two specific people).
[I acknowledge that some of the power that these people hold over me is a direct result of my boundaries–of me, allowing them to set me back.]
Growing up, I was always warned about burning bridges. One of my mom’s favorite sayings was, “Pick your battles wisely–you don’t want to burn a bridge you might need to cross one day.” (Usually, she was warning ME not to cross her).
The thing is, I am realizing that not only can I burn bridges–other people can burn MY bridge, too.
And, after being pushed and bullied for years and years, I am able to sit back and say:
My bridge is on fire.
And, you know what?
I really want to let that sucker burn all the way to the ground.
It isn’t my fault if it burns. I have given and given, apologized for existing, and stayed relatively quiet. I HAVE VALUE. They can’t see or appreciate that.
I am feeling done.